Unperfect

I often think that I'd like to record some of my more personal thoughts/feelings on my blog, just to get them out in the open and have somewhere to "vent". But I usually think twice about it because I am not sure I want everyone to really know what is going on in my head. Or in my life, for that matter. Truth be told-I don't want everyone to know that I am not a perfect person. (I hear your thoughts now-"Anna, I never thought you were perfect...")

So here I go. I am not perfect. I used to be, but I am not anymore. I am unperfect. (Okay, so really, I was never perfect, but I find myself all too often thinking "but I used to be able to read my scriptures for 20-30 minutes everyday!" or "but I used to be a good people person!" etc, etc.)

But I feel bold tonight. I will probably regret this in the morning, but by then this will be posted. (But then I guess I could delete it...) I feel empowered by the book that I am reading, "The New York Regional Mormon Singles Halloween Dance" by Elna Baker. Some of you might be offended if you read it, but I absolutely love it. I love that she is honest and forward and frankly, herself. I could ramble on about the many laughs I have had already from the first 100 pages of the book, but I will move forward to the purpose of my post. Admitting my imperfection. Or rather, my unperfection.

I have a 2 year old. I don't need to say much more about my life, because he defines me right now. I think he has an extra bad case of the terrible twos. I know most moms probably think that about their first child, but I really think he is worse than most. It's only been the last few days that he has been over the top. I have cried every day. And I am not pregnant, so I can't even use that as an excuse. (Though I guess I am nursing...)

Tonight, as he was sitting in his chair screaming for the 100th time (you think I am exaggerating to make this post more funny, but I guarantee that I am not) in the last 36 hours that his Nemo band-aid went down the drain (yes, it happened yesterday morning and he has not stopped crying about it since), I asked him, very calmly I might add, "Do you want to die?"

He didn't answer, and I honestly forgot that I had said it. But he did not forget. 2 year olds never forget. Joshua never forgets. 5 minutes later, Justin was asking him what he wanted for dinner.

Justin: "Joshua, do you want spaghetti O's? Mommy made you spaghetti O's!" (See, I am even admitting to feeding my child spaghetti O's for dinner! I really am feeling bold!)

Joshua: "No!"

Justin: "Well, what do you want?"

Joshua: "Die!"

Oh dear. I wish he was old enough to understand the phrase "just kidding". Now every time we sit up for dinner, he will ask to die. Oh dear, dear, dear. Good moms don't threaten their children with death over the dinner table, do they? Me=definitely unperfect. Good thing there is tomorrow.

Halloween peek!

So you're probably wondering why I haven't posted more recent pictures of Nathan. I realized last night that I have hardly taken any pictures of him because there is rarely a moment when I think about taking a picture that he is not crying. I don't want to have ALL crying pictures of him (he's a little colicky) for future posterity! But last night we went to a Halloween party and when I first put him in his costume, he was happy for a few minutes, and I got a picture or two before he burst into tears! Hope you like my little dinosaur and lion! :)

Nathan at 2 weeks...

Okay, so Nathan is almost 2 months now, but I thought some of you would like to see these awesome pics that Emily took. Cute Nathan Fred!

Blessing

Happy Family!


Not so happy cousins...



Very happy grandparents!


These pictures are all thanks to the wonderful Emily. Thanks! (She also did a photo shoot of Nathan when he was two weeks old which I have yet to post...stay tuned!) We blessed Nathan the night before we moved. Just a small blessing with our immediate families in the area. We love you Nathan Fred!

Starting Young

We are surprised at how quickly Joshua's reading ability has developed. He even chose Tolstoy himself!

The Big Water

So now that we've been to the beach a couple of times, every time we get in the car Joshua asks "Go big water?"

He loved it!

And so did we.

Britax Carseat Giveaway

I meant to do this post a week or two ago...but with moving our stuff and then Nathan coming earlier than planned....it just didn't happen! This giveaway ends TODAY, but if you get a chance to go enter, DO IT!!

This is one of my good friends from high school and I posted before about her cloth diaper review blog. A Britax carseat obviously has NOTHING to do with cloth diapers, but she has a pretty amazing story about this carseat saving her daughters life and because of it, she got Britax to do a giveaway on her blog. Pretty awesome.

Britax Carseat Giveaway